For God does not give us the power of fear. But of power and love and of a sound mind.
2cnd Timothy 1:7. Remember this verse as the enemy is trying to tear you down. Your sins are already forgiven and if you pray in silence God understands. There is coming a day very soon when God comes back. And all the people that has tortured you will stand in judgement. I pray peace and protection over you in Jesus name Amen