It is unimaginable the pain and grief you are experiencing now. I pray that God will comfort you with an all encompassing love that helps ease the pain and dispels the grief of the horrific act of hatred. But we wrestle not with flesh and blood but powers, principalities and wickedness in high places. Hold tight to your faith and keep looking to the prize that Jesus paid the price for you to receive. Love and prayers to you my brothers and sisters in Christ.